A Month of Infertility
Infertility feels like—
Getting to know your body better than anyone should
Eating like a wellness guru so you have top-notch quality eggs
Having a uncommon comfort level with doctor’s exams because you get them so often
Its the first thing on your mind as you take your temperature before your feet even hit the floor
Worrying about things like uterine thickness
Taking all the supplements and drinking all the teas
Researching any magic oil, drink, position, or some method that happened to work for someone once
Medications that make your crazy, hormonal, and oh the hot flashes
Peeing on all the sticks. Testing and testing and testing, multiple times a day because a hormone flux can come and go within 12 hours
It’s trying to keep the romance when you need perfectly timed baby making sessions
Then it’s the two-week wait.
Praying it worked
Constantly symptom spotting
Being hyper-aware of every feeling in your body, physical and emotional
Wondering if that twinge or pain was implantation
Scouring trying to conceive boards for hours looking for some confirmation that what your feeling is what some other woman felt once before she got her big fat positive
Learning all kinds of new acronyms so you can understand what anyone is even talking about on those forums
Wondering why all the pregnancy symptoms are the same as PMS
Testing every day hoping to see double lines
It’s getting a negative test and then going back hours later to see if it has magically changed
It’s crying and heartbreak when your cycle begins again and you realize that you still aren’t getting a baby.
Staying hopeful even when it hurts
Then it is doing it all over again.
You can read about my journey here.
Some forums to connect with other women trying to conceive.